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With everyday that passes the more numb I seem to get to all of this. Getting brain surgery is one of the biggest things that will ever happen to me in my entire life, yet for some reason I don't feel much about it. I don't know whether this is the result of me numbing myself in some sort of subconscious way or if I really don't feel anything. When I'm around people, family for the most part, I try to be strong so everyone else doesn't worry about me, people don't need the extra burden of worrying. But when I sit by myself thinking about what soon will be my reality, my eyes sometimes swell up with tears, but thats all I let it get to.This is my thing, my problem and I feel bad anyone worries about me at all. I don't know if I'm scared, or if I'm anything at all for that matter. I need to get through this, that's all I can think, that this is something I have to do.
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Sarah ~ I found your blog through an alert i have set up on google for anytime someone blogs about chiari. I was diagnosed with chiari back in 9/2006. Having Chiari can be scary and overwhelming but know that you are not alone in your journey. There are many of us who are going through the same things:) Here's my blog address ~ http://livelovelaugh-lace1013.blogspot.com/
I have done a lot of research on chiari, EDS and tethered cord. Hopefully you will find the links on my sidebar helpful ~ and maybe even inspirational. Please feel free to e-mail me anytime ~ hugs ~ Lace
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