Sarah Angelini

I lay in bed tonight wondering how I can go on like this for much longer. Despite my words and complaints to my secret blogging world I keep a clean face. I don't complain outwardly or expect any sort of pity in the real world. I'm overdoing it, clearly. I want to be normal so bad that I pretend to be completely fine. It's all catching up to me now though. I am the only one who knows my true feelings and thoughts, most of the time I wish to keep it that way. The reality of my situation is I need help, like so many others who struggle and feel as though there is no where to turn and no relief. There are SO many questions and seemingly no right answers. I think about others who are struggling, such as Cindy, you seem to always have comfort to provide for me and I appreciate it sooo much,even though I know you are going through such a rough patch. I don't know what the answers are to my questions, I don't know what to do. I just know that I need help.

Like I said, I've been overdoing it. Doing too much and now I feel sick all the time and have intense headaches. It feels like the drive inside of me to be a young teenager overpowers the fact that when it's all said and done I'll be sitting around in agonizing pain.